Tuesday Morning.

Move, just move.  Why, why can't I get her to call Jerry ! Damn it call him ,he is going to freak if he sees an ambulance. Really I think I'm going to . Move your foot, stop hitting me . That hurts really bad. Please call Jerry. why aren't you listening. Why is it good that I laugh? I can't even move.
    God if you're taking me, that's o.k. just let me move my foot so I can kick Melodie ; Please stop hitting me. I know you mean well but please call Jerry.  Hey Jack Ass, I am not crazy and you are really hurting me. Don't tell me how shitty this ambulance is , Oh I feel really badly that you have to drive around in such a crappy ambulance . Poor you, I'm going to die in here and you don't have your new ambulance . I'm so very sorry. Yes please take the way that has less bumps even though it's slightly longer, every bump you hit is killing me .Mom this is a very crappy way to say Hello. If I can't move how will I let Ester out. Oh ,Ester is with Mom. If I die who will tell my husband and my children to be o.k. ? Life is good and don't feel guilty if you move on and enjoy it. Don't forget me ,but don't squander that I taught you that life is too short, keep going until life sends you to the best place  we could ever imagine. Damn it don't think that . I'm not going to die , see there's Jerry , he doesn't think I'm making this up. Shit why does every one keep hitting me! You aren't looking at me like I'm crazy and you are the one that knows that I am. Or am I , it has to be something.  This can't really be happening. This isn't real. I feel nothing but everything really hurts.

        These were my thoughts last Tuesday morning, some of them have become the reality of my last week. I still can't really move. I still feel like my brain is not part of this body. I still don't really know what's going on. But do any of us really ever know? Was I sent into this journey that may be called Lupus to teach me something. And what is it? Will I learn for myself that life is too short and not take it for granted . Did God send me on this path to see who I really am? Will I even really like me?
        When you move like a slug and your brain is already three sentences ahead of what you just typed and the phone is ringing but it's in the other room and it would take you too long to get it and then whoever it was doesn't leave a message because they don't know that your new reality; for this moment; is moving like an ancient person who can't just run to  answer but desperately is hoping you are the one who called. They don't know that ,and I even catch myself not knowing that and I trip and almost fall because as I said I am three sentences ahead of myself  in typing and even in moving.
          I'm not the one that people help, I'm the one who helps. I don't like when I know I'm the one people have to put thought into. Wow that's a sad realization. I like to think that I am the one who makes it all o.k. and if I research and find out enough information I can figure out exactly what to do and how to fix whatever is going on.
          But this time I'm not sure today that I can. I have to believe this is happening for a reason. I have to believe God knows what he is doing. I have to give it all to him. Because this one I can't do alone. I can't do it without my Mom, I can't do it without my Ester. Why she keeps coming to me I'm not sure. She was such a comfort and a constant and now I feel lost.
          Everything and everyone is sent to us for a reason and I hope to find out and share that with whoever will listen. So if you want to share in this ride with me I'd like to take you too. I haven't shared that thought pattern , from Tuesday morning, really with anyone until today. I think this will help me see the reason for all this if I do. So let me ,let you ;whoever you are in my life; help me by just reading. I'm not really looking for any response ,If you feel one share with me. Let me know because there is a reason and maybe we can learn it together. 

                                                                          If you took the time to read this I know you did because you care even if we don't know each other well or we may know each other so well we have children together but no matter who you are there is a reason we are together and I love you for that, Joanne

New 3-D sign

I recently finished a sign for our new family baby and I thought I would share , I used Close To My Heart product and added board as the base . I've had it around for awhile unfinished and then I finally knew what it was for. Hope you like it. If you would like a sign or would like to learn how to make one yourself just contact me . I love to share.

Life today along with some creativity.

Been along time again,ugh, I'm not very good at keeping a schedule to post. Maybe that should be a New Year's Resolution. Yeah ,like I'm good at keeping those either. Actually I don;t think I've ever made one. Life is what it is and it's going to go on whether I lose weight or get organized or become more grateful. Not saying any of those things are bad to aspire to. It's just I'm the type of person who just goes along with whatever goes on. My agenda isn't scheduled . Maybe that's a bad thing ,but things seem to always work out somehow.  Sometimes I worry so much I get sick, sometimes I couldn't care at all whatever happens  in a day. Hmm.....is this good or bad. I happen to think It's a strength and Sometimes it's the biggest hinderance that I have. Well whatever it is it's me.

  My only goal in life that I've ever really made was to be warm and comfortable. I manage that most days. It could be looked at as selfish or selfless. It really depends on the day and the time. Maybe that's it I'm a Conundrum (Is that how you spell that?) Whatever , but it's a good description anyway.

I suppose I will show you a few of the things I've been up to, some of you may have seen this ,some maybe not. I just realized there's only a few days until Christmas ,unreal hey,but once again"I will Survive!" Like I said everything always works out some how, well I think God has a bit to do with it !!

Pumpkins!!!!!

So I noticed some questions on the CTMH bulletin board about the paper pumpkins in the catalog,before I saw this I had already made my own rendition.So I thought I would show them off.

 I used Sorbet paper ,The New Ruby marker set dark to put in the veining.Then over top I used the lighter Ruby marker to blend and add depth . Then I put both bronze and red glitter gel in small amounts and spread on with my finger. Let everything dry . Then did the other side of each. I used the leaf from the box topper from the cartridge so I had a hole in the midde. I cut this 3 times using ,sorbet ,topiary and kraft cardstock . I cut the green and sorbet cardstock in peices and glued them together . I then went back with the markers and glitter and did the same as with the pumpkins . Then I looked in the catalog and made the ones they had there. I didn't follow there recipe I just made it up . I did use the Harvest Happiness stamp set . I use the same colors of cardstock because I have extras and they are my favorite. I used the new pigment inks in the same colors as the papers and here you go.

 I do think I like the ones with the extra parts added to add extra dimension. I put my first together with liquid glass and that took a long time in between to dry. The ones in the catalog that I copied I used glue dots then I didn't have to wait. Very impatient to see how they would look.

So I thought I would share and start the new part of my blog: My Gratitude Corner : Today I am truly Grateful for my friend Sarita for listening for the hundreth time to me gripe about life. I will add each day something I am grateful for so we'll see how this impacts my life and maybe even yours. 

Join our team!

Come join our team we now have 2 opportunities to help you get started doing what you love.

   Now join for only $49.00 to get started or $99.00 to get that business up and running .Either way you get this cool backpack! Then next time you can be part of our team retreat on beautiful Lake Delavan. Or earn your way to conference next year in Sunny Orlando!

Card class!

Come join us to make some beautiful cards,and just to get together with fellow crafters !

This September 8th we will be doing our Avonlea card class , from 10:30 to 12:30.
 I need to know by August 29th so I can order supplies the class is $29.95 and you end up with 15 cards. I will be bringing some other sentiments so if there is a specific card you need to make this kit is so neutral that you will be able to use it for anything.

My next class will be for a Halloween party everything you need to decorate and have fun at a Halloween shindig!
       Let's make it a monthly crafting event. Hope to hear from you all,Joanne
   

The beginning of summer!

I went out on my first horseback ride in quite awhile today,it was wonderful. I took my trusty Dixie out into the woods and we had a great time. My young Barty casually waiting back at the barn,the ride on him will be for a day I'm feeling braver. So I'm feeling I need to get back to life and that means crafting. So who in it with me? I know you're all really ready to say yes let's do it ! But summer is so busy,well we all need some time to just us and definetely time to craft. Who doesn't need some girl creative time? I have some wood signs I am going to take pictures of and then we can pick a time. It's o.k. If you have knowledge of working with paper or not It'll still be fun,I will post photos this week and we can start next. If you have ideas of you're own or have some furniture or painting you want to do. We could set up for that too,comment here and I'll get back to you.

I have finally set up my new website for Close To My Heart and was able to use scrapsinlife so the address is;   http://scrapsinlife.ctmh.com
  So visit it and check out what we have to offer . I will be able to send out a newsletter each month so if you'd like to be part of that please e-mail me with your e-mail address so I can add you to the list ,I'm going to setting up some classes this summer. Not only scrapbooking but more Papercrafting and maybe even some sign making in there what do you think. If I get feedback I will be sure to add what people want. It doesn't take an army to have a class or a million dollars for that matter , it can be as small or as big as you want. I don`t mind setting up whatever is up your alley. So let me know , and I would really appreciate if you have no interest sending any one you know with an interest to my sight or my blog. You`d be surprised it`s not just scrapbooking. So let me know and send me your e-mails even if it`s a way to just stay connected, Thanks , Joanne     joannem@tds.net

Furniture that I will be working on.

These are a few of the things I have to work on or have already ,just sharing there are definetly more to come.

It's been forever once again!

I need to make priorities for my blog. I would like this to be a more regular thing. As anyone who knows me that is award thing for me to accomplish. I have some more pics of furniture and of some paper crafts,but I am working on my I Pad so I will post them tommorrow from my laptop. I will post this on Facebook and would like all to join,if you have any products you recommend or sell post them and your website or your info and I will try to send this blog all over. As most of you know I am Close To My Heart consultant, a Shaklee Distributor and I redo furniture and do some sewing. I would like to get as many people to know as possible.And if you know others who do the same maybe through this we could have a vendor party or just share in each others passions. So if you wouldn't mind helping me ,I will help you . The first 4 to join or share there info will get a gift from me,just pick a catagorie and I will personally send something to you.
This may seem like I ' pushy but I'm more interested in others info and what my friends and there friends have to offer. Thanks and I will post pics tomorrow, Joanne

Here are a couple things I worked on over winter I have more I need to take pictures of.